Gone.

First I'll apologies for not posting in a while.

Secondly and more importantly I'll explain what has prompted me to post. Today at approximately 1:30 pm I was casually playing on the piano, working out the chords to "Safe and Sound" by Taylor Swift for my group performance in music. My brother had just gotten home from rugby and was telling me about how he scored a try, my sister was listening to me play and giving my advice. Suddenly my parents walk in, my mum on the verge of tears, they tell us that "they need to talk to us". We sit down, us kids on one couch, my parents on another. They look at one another and my dad says "well it's mostly your decision Paige", my mum quickly takes a deep breath and says "Dad and I are going to separate."  I can't hear anything, my vision goes blurry, surely it's just some horrible dream. Mum keeps talking and I haven't a single clue as to what she said. My sister bursts into tears beside me, causing me to also. My parents continue to explain what's going to happen, how Mum is going to rent a house in town and is moving in on the 18th, how they know it's going to be difficult and confusing. They assure us that we had nothing to do with it and that they just no longer feel happy being together.

So that's it, after 26 years of marriage my parents are getting a divorce.

I can't really say it's unexpected but I'm terrified.

Stop.

I'm so tired right now. Everyone is getting on nerves for one reason or another. I blame exhaustion and stress. Everything is way too complicated, too difficult. Isolation seems like the only cure right now...

First Draft

So here is the first draft to a poem I wrote moments ago. Personally I believe it would be better suited as song lyrics, however I do not possess the talent or expertise to write a song.

Alone

As you fight to stay afloat
Trust you will not sink
For I sail this ocean also
So when the salt torments your wounds
Do not forget… never forget
You are not alone

Those walls you build
Will come crashing down
Push me away
I will take you in my arms
Caress your scars
Give you my heart
So that you know
You are not alone

You say this is your battle
But dear friend thus is life
All my courage will be called upon
Therefore your battle will be my war
Do not forget… never forget…
You are not alone

Those walls you build
Will come crashing down
Push me away
I will take you in my arms
Caress your scars
Give you my heart
So that you know
You are not alone

Hello, Hello, Hello

So here's a quick update on my life thus far:

• Storme, Sam and I competed in our first debate against St. Bedes, unfortunately we lost, but I did get best speaker.
• Jesse and I broke up, (mutual agreement.)
• I look like a complete fooligan in a blazer.

So yes I am now a 'single pringle' as my friend Emma would put it. I'm far from devestated, sure I was sad that it didn't work out, but not sad about the break up. If that makes sense... On the plus side I can now flirt with whoever I want whenever I want, something I'm going to make the most of.

So tomorrow is the UN conference, and the country I'm representing is Samoa. They are rather politically correct and boring, so that's a tad dull. So that is why I have the blazer, and it's far too long for me.

Well I have nothing else to write about, and I must say this blog is a little neglected but oh well. I shall say it is short and sweet instead :P